Friday, December 22, 2006

Happy Old Year

Are you ready to send to hell the ripe old year? Not me. I shouldn't be ungrateful for what 2006 brought to me. I travelled to Sweden for free, I payed off my car, I had marvellous holidays, I met cool new people, I came closer with some of them, I met Irene hoping that sometime she may change her mind, I started guitar lessons, I talked with the Tool, the Echo And The Bunnymen, the Primal Scream, the My Morning Jacket and some other special bands, I watched concerts of Tool, Pearl Jam, Depeche Mode, Roger Waters, Stooges, Kaiser Chiefs, Guns N' Roses, Franz Ferdinand and many more too, and first and foremost I am healthy and happy next to my own people.
I shouldn't be ungrateful. There is something missing, but I am almost sure that it is on the way to me. Welcome new year, may my luck be with you...

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

To Ascend You Must Die...

It is naive to believe that to ascend you must die.
But when you are dead you can only descend.
How the hell, it all proved to be a subconscious lie...
Before it even started our love came to an end...

Pity for me, pity for you.
If only I could have stopped time on that night...

Monday, December 18, 2006

I Wish I Knew I Should Have Put The Pressure On Me (Once Again)...

Ok, ok, I am overcoming it. I have learned to be alone and to be patient.
I feel like hell. I believe I can achieve anything. I feel so selfish after all, it is just that I feel sorry for those around. Xaxaxa.
Don't blame women. They do not deserve this. Looool.
Every cloud has a silver lining, I know, I will let you know too, when I meet the next... cloud. :o)
Juanito esta muy alegre. Que suerte! Piensa en ti. Besos senora!

p.s. (I became a pressing fool. Unbelievable...)

Friday, December 15, 2006

Dripping Poison Kiss...

Do you remember about that girl I had met during my summer holidays? Eventually everything went clear, unfortunatelly negatively for me. She was not replying to my calls, I sent her an sms asking her to explain to me what is going on and the answer was that I really put her off when I made her kiss me (isn't it ironic that she was asking me for a whole week why I hadn't kissed her at Mykonos etc....).
God bless her, nevermind, I am even stronger now, but this time I will not place all the evidence on my own back. I have changed, I swear to God.
Ioanna (a girl we are working together) has posted a flyer by the movie "the edukators" on her desk. It reads ironically: "some people never change". Xaxaxa... Fuck me.

I never knew my kisses drip poison...

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Angel In Stockholm

The photo story.
I was walking through the streets of Venice of the North for three days, all alone, fulfilling one more dream during 2006, but I had one of you in mind. It would be better if we were sleeping together in my cozy 5 star hotel room, it would be better if we were kissing together in a hidden Gamla Stan back street, it would be better if we had flied together over half of Europe, it would be better if we had something endless to share for a lifetime.
Nevermind. I hope that I will visit this city again in the future with or without one of you. It is easy to understand that sometimes even shadows put a smile on my face. Just take a look at the pic. Oh, yes, there are still memories to make me happy...
Next stop could be a city on the other end of the planet. It is called Johannesburg, a place that will always bring to my mind another one of you...

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Lacrimas De Sangre

For the song that she sings
Whatever it brings

For the charges she flings
Whatever it brings

For the might of the kings
Whatever it brings

For the bell that she rings
Whatever it brings...

Friday, December 08, 2006

A Mail To Be Deleted

If you are intersted in my own (uniquely particular) way of behaviour, I can only tell you, that I have never started something, simply for being able to talk about it (that is why I have been alone for long periods of time). What I mostly care about is really falling in love with someone, otherwise I prefer being alone and not messing with the feelings of someone who feels so many things for me.
It is a pain, I am running out of time and my self confidence gets hurt, but I have never told a girl "I 'm fed up with you, I 'm not in love with you anymore" and this is what makes me feel fine...

Thursday, December 07, 2006

A Matter Of Good Taste

Days go by but I remain alone. Days go by, so far all of them are passers by, but I stay alone. I guess it is a matter of choice. If I 'd love it I would have it. But now, here I am standing on my own. A lot of chances got lost in a moment. A lot of dreams proved to be nightmares. But I still stay proud. Different. My armor chain remains intact. Some arrows are still hanging on it. But my heart is still beating pure. No matter how many times I have killed myself so far. I was always choosing the enemy. I was always choosing the way to get hurt. After all, I don't worry about the future. Everything will happen, sooner or later. I am prepared for the best. I am sure about her quality. After all, everything is just a matter of good taste...

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Memories Compiled

The compilation you asked me is ready. There is everything in there. Songs I like, songs you like, songs we both may like. Yes, it is dangerous we still meet once in a year or so, but it is also romantic. I know things will never change. I don't know if I would like them to. I still think of you and I still remember the songs you were singing when we were dating, about four or five years ago. I am sure you still like them.
Can you explain this to me? How can you still love a song after five years or even a lifetime, but not someone that adored you? It just makes no sense to me. If only you knew...

Monday, December 04, 2006

Postcard From The Past

Meet me at my dreams at 00:00. Let's see together the cocaine's light.

...It Looks As If The
Star I Have Seen
Has Fallen
Right Beside Me...

Goodnight my love to all that is pure that is in your heart...