A Mail To Be Deleted

If you are intersted in my own (uniquely particular) way of behaviour, I can only tell you, that I have never started something, simply for being able to talk about it (that is why I have been alone for long periods of time). What I mostly care about is really falling in love with someone, otherwise I prefer being alone and not messing with the feelings of someone who feels so many things for me.
It is a pain, I am running out of time and my self confidence gets hurt, but I have never told a girl "I 'm fed up with you, I 'm not in love with you anymore" and this is what makes me feel fine...